Feels like forever

    Swear I've been leaving this thing for so long, like long enough you can barely feel the awkwardness of typing long words here. Well usually it has its limits, 140 letters they say - if you know what I mean. And well, I kinda miss typing and expressing here. Haha padahal sebab dah deactivate Twitter cause I don't know, Twitter bring bad effects to me ? Huhh, I surely not sure about that though but part of me says that yes, Twitter had bring bad effects for me. In what way, lets just keep it as a secret hey ?

   Well myb I will be writing here back since I don't know, due to boredom ? And reading back my old posts really do turn me off. Oh how immature I am back then. Oh well, myb one day when I read this, the same thought will came out again. Ahh yes, the usual me. Always regret everything that's ever happened to me. Lagi lagi love life. Stupid me is always stupid. 

    Basically, my life has changed 360 degree now. And I am relief that I had change. Change to become a good person, a better Muslim in order to serve Allah. And hm, myb I will delete all my old post soon. But yeah, I did once promise to myself that I will not delete it no matter what but hey, back then I was jenis yang tak fikir panjang and sadly, still am right now. Just myb back then I was worsen than now. Kot. So I don't know what to do now. 

     Surprisingly I feel like dah lama gila tinggalkan benda past padahal past yang nak tinggalkan tu baru 6 bulan yang lalu ? I don't know, myb 7 bulan yang lalu. Because right now, I've change and still trying to change and I don't want to be the old me again. The old me who never ever thought of the sins that I'm doing back then and felt guilty about it. The old me who never try to be a better Muslim. Ergh I dont know.


Dah lah, bye. Hope to see you again blogger.
Assalamualaikum.

I'm sorry,

Im sorry for abandon you my sweet sweet blog. It's just that I have my new addiction, which is Twitter --, Dulu kemain kutuk benda ni, sekarang sampai sanggup beli internet dekat phone sebab nak bukak Twitter. Lagi tegar ketagihanku terhadap Twitter berbanding engkau wahai blog.

I dont know, I just dont have any idea to write. Especially to write loooong like an essay. Erggh, if only Im smarter than this, typing would be much easier.

BYE

Still alive

But of course Im still alive. But recently Ive been busy with work, preparations for studies and gathering with friends so I didn't have time to post any of it. Im sure no one miss me here - aku pun tak tahu siapa yang baca sebenarnya ni --, so not posting any for awhile sure didn't bother any of you.

Things changed lately. Changed a lot. And they're some changes I hate , but Allah knows best for me so I let it be. Im a big girl now, trying to be brave and matured enough.

Fuck ah, since ada twitter ni otak aku terbantut nak buat karangan BI ni. Semua nak buat pendek pendek je sebab ada limits. Ni takde limits pulak jadi speechless. Fuck fuck fuck.

Bye, xoxo.

A kitten & a phone.

    As you can read the title yes, I've got a new kitten and new phone. His name is Owie and Amnan makes weird sound when I told him the kitten's name --, - Kfine nama dia pelik kan bagi semua orang ; So basically Owie keeps following us all around the house. - Kalau aku sorang je dkt rumah, aku lah yang dia ikut ; Ni haa sekarang ada dekat belakang aku tengah tidur sebab aku sorang je ada dekat rumah. Tadi mak sorang dekat rumah, sampai ke toilet mak aku nak buang air pun dia masuk juga, duduk je tepi, haih.

  

     Oh and just bought a new Xperia mini pro phone. This phone are just as complicated as I expected. And I hate it but trying to love it. Oh I miss my LG phone. Aaanyway, it's fun typing using qwerty thingy as it had been a long time using touchscreen only. So there's something I should be loving the phone. Other than thaaat, entah. Oh maybe buat Twitter balik kot since beli phone ni.

Bye.

p/s : I will post Owie's pictures when I already know how to upload it. - Aku rasa aku benci Sony Ericsson ?

Thank you, a lot.

   

       14th of April 2012 had just past one hour ++ ago . And it was the greatest day ever; it was the greatest birthday's day for me, so far. Yes, 14th April it is. The best part was that I'm not hoping for anything this year, never ever for what had just happen yesterday.

• Friday night, I treated them Domino's since I just got my first salary early this April after I treated my family last week. It was a lil bit of a chaos before we hit the road and after we arrived Domino's at Bandar Baru Bangi. We met the boys there and went home a little bit late - lambat rasanya. So there were me, Tqa, Dila, Edy, Ila, Shahirah, Amnan, Raziq and Kp that night. But then, before 12am aku dah kena belon air dengan Raziq depan Domino's, yeayyy thank you Raziq and Dila, Edy -.- . So basically that night was a big fat fun. 

•  After sending Ila, we all had a sleepover at Tqa's ! At 12am++  they sang to me happily ! :D

• After done with our Subuh, we're off to Pullman to see the-so-called-sunrise with Ila too ! Then they had surprised me again with cupcakes with candle on top, each.  I love you guys :') - but pergi Pullman ni with the girls only because Kp cant drive, Raziq got to go to work, Amnan is sick. Went back to Tqa's and since it's my birthday, so le me got dressed up by Dila and Edy and Tqa. Shahirah got dressed up too, and she's the most kelakar feature one among me and Tqa, hehe.

• Many unexpecting people wished me through text and were 5 of my friends sang a birthday's song to me through phone ! :')

• My mum bought me a piece of cake yeay ! - Dia faham anak dia on diet :')

So, goodnight and I love you guys, all of you.

Always, InsyaAllah.

xx.

  

Waste of time

   Imagine, you've told them everything about your hateness towards someone. You've told them all your hateness with full of emotions of how miserable that particular person had done to you towards your life. Especially you've told about it to your close ones. Then they will make pity face and told you how much they hate the person who had made your life miserable too, how much they support you that makes you felt that they do understand/feel what you've been through. 

   But then one day, you'd seen them hanging, laughing with that particular person you hate, chatting, outing, followed that particular person, and in a way had been supporting her. So all this while, what was it ? What was it you felt when I explained, when I cried about how horrible that person had made me, when I felt like killing that person every time I see her/him ? Was it all just a lie, what was it ? You being hypocrite or me for being immature ? So I guess then its all just a waste of time expressing everything to people how I felt. Because that will show the hypocriteness of people surrounds me and show that Im such a baby.
Stupid-weak-and-immature kind of baby.


Let the feelings die alone in the verge of miserableness by itself.

Alamanda, Putrajaya.

   Hey, went to lepak with me best friends and Amnan's friends. What a perfect day since its been so long for not meeting my friends simultaneously. So we watched a movie today ; Wrath of the Titans. Then we ate and then Tqa datang, yeaayy and things gets better. Okay sebenarnya time nak balik tu berapa kali pin tudung tercabut then nampak rambut, shit rasa nak menangis time tu sebab malu. Aku benci selendang tu, tapi lawa - Thank God its Yani's.

Lepak dengan Dila was the best part. That, can't compare to anything. Anything. 

Not to forget Tqa. But Dila win this time.

Goodnight people.

p/s : Jumaat ni tidur rumah Tqa, jumpa Dila lagi yeay !

Really,

Maybe I should not post that.

It makes things worse.

Maybe I should move on.

The Best.

So tell me how does it feels when you suddenly found your sekolah rendah schoolmate yang last jumpa dia darjah empat sebab kau pindah and then cakap cakap dgn dia through IM apa semua kan, best kan ? 8 tahun okay tak jumpa, tak cakap.

It feels awesome to maximum okaaaaaay ! Tanya Dila how does it feels to me ! Heheheeheheh.


Byebye, I love you people !
xx.

I realized that

Aku sakit, sakit dkt sini. Sakit tak terkata.

Sebab aku rindu kau. Rindu kau sangat. 

Tak tahu rindu dari segi apa, tapi rindu juga.

Yeah, aku sakit yang itu.

Feeling fuuuuuu**.

  I am in the verge of frustration. I hate it when I can't go out anywhere since I have been working right now till June 2012  WHAT THE FUCK lahhhh. Aku nak sekolah balik, aku tak nak kerja. TAK NAK. But I freaking need money to stay alive.

  Since lepas results keluar, ramai yang nak belanja makan - walaupun result tak sehebat mana kan ; Tapi aku kerja ! And aku balik malam ! Kay Yana, senyap. Kau yang mintak kerja, kau nak mencarut dekat sini, waste of time yadayadayada.

Adios, bye.

p/s : I bet when Ila reads this by now, she will hate me to death because when I complain about this, she said : kau menggatal sangat cari kerja apahal, padan muka kau.

Try me.

     Sometimes people have to main tarik tali dengan aku so that I know whether I do appreciate the presence of her/him in my life or not, whether I love her/him or not. Seriously people, try this to me. Make me feel miserable for not having you in my life, make me look stupid and let's say, even more stupider than stupid, hey ? I do appreciate your hardworking, yeah. I do, I'm sure about it.

Go on, don't be afraid. Dare me, try me. So I will know the exact answer, and so do you. No one will missing any. You will get what you want, and I will get mine. Get it ?


Bye, gnight.

Ya Allaaaaaaah !

Ya Allaaaaah, Ya Allaaaah

Handsomenya ya Allah. Ya Allaaaah. Okay stop it.


p/s : Dila pun suka yang ini okay, hehe. Because it was originally edited by me ! Ehehe. xx

Ever and ever,

   Since been working and got back home at 9pm almost everyday, this had changed my life - so far. Because, after finished working, I feel like its easy for me to get out hanging with my friends - malam malam tu, gilakan ? What a big change kan ? Told yaa ;

   And so yeah, just know we went out again. But this time felt more complete with all but without Dila and HQ, hm hm. Kp took us and we went eating at Secret Recipe. And Ya Allah, sumpah seronok best sangat aku cerita semua pasal kerja aku dkt Edy and we went all kusut kusut bising sampai mcm tak dengar each other cakap sbb dah lama tak jumpa and banyak nak ceritakaaan, obviously ? Shera dengan Tqa cerita lain tapi gelak gelak bising dalam kereta, me with Edy telling about my new experience and she went all excited to hear it while Raziq dgn Kp diam shj sbb takde guna diaorg cakap sbb bukannya kitaorang dengar sbb kecoh sgt dekat belakang ? Ya Allah, repeat that again okay ? - hehe, banyak demand lah kau ni Yana.

Haih, I love this moment and I already miss the moment; this very happy moment.

I love you guys, goodnight.

Hai Ila

HAHAHAHAHAHAH seriously yes its been a while no, a loooong time you didn't updated you blog. And haish, touched lah jugak kau ada mention nama aku dua kali - awww, menangis sekejap ; and seriously aku memang gelak gila masa baca entry kau tu - so you've been thought right about me hey ? ; tapi memang patut gelak pun ? Cause if they were in my shoes, diaorg akan gelak jugak sebab everytime mengadap kau dengar org sebut pasal korean stuff, kau kemain kutuk mengalah aku yang membencinya jugak last last melekat mengalahkan aku yang tak kutuk lebih teruk dari kau en ? Hahaha, haish Ila Ila.

And Ila, Im dead serious now that when Tqa and Edy reading this, they will laugh at you too, ahahahhaah. And and I know you wove me too yeay ! Yeay, result SPM keluar Rabu depan - nak spoilkan mood aku kejap, ke mood korang pun spoil jugak bila baca ni ? 

Hehehe, byee !

Allah, I beg You.

5 KARISMA, 2011.

  

Aku nak pergi sekolah balik. 

Sumpah Ya Allah, sumpah demi Allah.

Nak satu hari je, tak lebih ;

Satu hari duduk dalam kelas ;  

Pakai baju sekolah & duduk tempat masing-masing ;

Ya, kerusi yang tu, meja yang sama tu ; aku nak.

Pretend yang sekolah tak habis lagi ;

When semua sibuk prepare untuk SPM. 

Im dying for it.

Tolong Ya Allah, aku merayu ;

Sekali sahaja, satu kali sahaja aku merayu.

Bolehkan ?

AMIN, AMIN YA RABBAL A'LAMIN.

 

 

 

Me newy lifeyyy .

   Haa cuba kau baca title tu, ahahhahaha. Okay sorry. So yeah, its true. Im living in a new life right now, agak menggelabah ayam sikit tapi mmg betul lah kot. Sebab me dah start kerjaaaa ! - yeay Yana, result SPM lagi dua minggu, dua minggu, bukan dua bulan okay ; whatever, who cares asalkan aku dapat duit.

   Kerja dekat klinik haiwan, hehehehehe. Best lah juga kan, tapi setakat dua hari ni mmg penatlah. Dah dua bulan dok menternak lemak je, mana tak penatkan. So yeah, aku kena lah juga buang tahi kucing, bersih kencing kucing, and dua benda tu dah cukup boleh buat aku pengsan. Hello, bersih tahi pakai tangan and tisu haa lepastu angkat & buang, tapi kalau yang cair tak a kan. And oh tu bukan lah kerja aku tapi tolong je lah kan tkkn nak biar je, tmpt tu jadi busuk, aku juga dapat bau dia. So sebenarnya as clinic assistant. Eh sebenarnya buat masa ni percubaan dulu, so harap harap dapatlah kan. So pray for me bebeyh, okay ew.


Aaa, okay lah byebye.

Hey.

I can be a good friend - kot 

But a bad girlfriend.

So lets be friends, or best friend myb but hey, don't ever fall for me, okay ? Bukan nak perasan, tapi entah aku mmg jahat. Siapa yg cakap imma good girlf tu mmg tambhi deydeydey lah.

Bye.

 p/s : eh anonymous yang annoyed aku haritu tu, ni bukan untuk kau. So takpayah nak perli aku dkt sini.

Eh, babi ?

Aku rasa nak lempang semua orang depan aku sekarang ni boleh tak ? Tak cukup dengan adik aku, dengan anonymous bodoh tu pula kan aku rasa nak bakar je kaaaaaan. Aku nak mencarut lebih dari tajuk entry aku boleh tak ? 

Oky, oky kusut kan. Bye.

Freaking Hilarious

Bapak : Frina, tolong amik panties bapak dkt bawah, dlm bilik dah takde.
 Panties yedak pak ? Ahahahahhahahahahah. Sejak bila lah pulak ye lelaki pakai panties.


Byeeee, hehe.

Go web go ! - Peter Parker

Watching Spider-man on HBO with my little sisters. Tetibe bapak turun :0

Yana   : Bapaaaaak, cerita Spider-maaaaaan.

Bapak : Hah, tengok HBO !

Mira    : Tapi best lah bapak.

Frina   : Mana ada pape pun bapak.

Bapak : Awak tu suka lah tengok cerita macam ni, kiss kiss.

Tetibe Yani datang dari mana entah ;

Yani    : Bapak, takpelah kan akak dah 18 tahun, boleh lah tengok kiss kiss

Bapak : Yana je lah, ni yang budak kecik ni mana boleh. - shocked to death sekejap

               Eh, tapi Yana belum 18 lah ! Birthday belum lagi. - adoi bapak ni, hahaha --,

  Conclusion, all this while the only reason he didnt let us all watch HBO & seangkatannya sbb takut ada kissing part je. Ingat kan sbb takde faedah ke, baik tengok ceramah ke en, haahahaah. Daddy, daddy you are so funny - tapi kekadang je lah ye.

Byee !

Asdfghjklee

    I just got weirder and weirder; not on the outside which I look normal and happy, but inside of me, suddenly felt something different - in a bad way to be precise. And now, trying hard - at least I know Ive tried hard, kot ? ; to forget it. The stupidest thing on earth is I think a lot about it last night and it appear in my dreams. Stupid brain, stupid dream. Why must I dream about it ? I can just wake up immediately that time, but somehow my brain said to wait and see up until the end - which is not a good news at all ; I shouldn't think about my dreams this deep sebenarnya, because its hanyalah mainan tidur ; hanyalah mainan syaitan ; hanyalah mainan hidup yang nak rosakkan hari hari  kita - Well, not all dreams like that, kan ? ; 

But I will just put them away, though. Dah, done ! Easy peasy.

Byebye :D

p/s: what a relief, rasa beban dah terlepas bila luahkan.

Aku dah makin kusut.

You are too perfect of a friend, I dont want to ruin our friendship. Im sure it will change 360 degree if, you know if what. Im sure 120 % about that. So let's be best-friend forever. Forever and ever until we die. And no one can tear that apart. Kan ?  :D

What the fuck aku cakap ni --,

Bye.

Its time.

Im sorry, I swear to god Im sorry.

Stalking kononnya

  Hey, kalau korang nak tahu, kalau nak tahu lah kan. Imma serious stalker, uuuuuu okay you can scare til shit right now, hahahahahahaaha. To prove that imma serious stalker, em let me think. I open this one person blog page, okay myb 3 persons hahahaha almost everytime I open my laptop ! Woaa, heavy kind of stalker am I ? - what the fuck lah Yanaaa. Hey, kira saiko a tu aku buka blog diaorang ni before aku sign in blog aku ni, okay. Okay sebenarnya takde benda nak cakap ni, tu lah cakap pasal bnd ni. 

  Lepastu kan, bila buka page sorang ni, aku asek kutuk ke sampai aku pun naik meluat then tutup. Teruk kan ? Yang sorang lagi stalk sbb saja saja, macam saiko nak tahu life budak ni. Lagi sorang ni sebab nak gelak gelak sampai bosan lepastu post comment lepastu nnt bila on balik internet bila bila, baca balik lepastu gelak lagi, padahal dah baca, dah comment balik dah, hahaahha.


Okay you can slap me now, serious cepatlah aku tengah tadah muka ni. 
Bubye.

Tetibe

Rasa macam nak bakar rumah orang bila baca entry orang yang hanging, bila orang tanya menda, kata takde pape. Eh, babi lah.

-Ceh padahal dia pun tengah post benda hanging ni, lepastu nnt orang tanya, kata takde pape juga ! But then again, who's going to read this and ask ?

Terrified

  I found out that Im afraid of creating a Twitter account. Why ? I dont know, I. Freakingly. Dont. Know. Seriously, asal entah aku mmg tak tahu. Tadi baru je buat, like 2 3 minit yang lalu ? Tapi aku deactivate-kannya. Seriously, terus deactivate balik. Macam bodoh kan ? 

  Myb I wasnt ready to be in a public - ceh, macam tempat ni tak public lah pula kan; Tapi atleast aku tak nampak orang tengah online dekat sini, tak mcm Twitter, Facebook semua tu. Facebook aku tu pun mcm mayat hidup je, tak pernah post apa apa, tak pernah letak gambar. Myb I found out that Im some kind of a boring person, kind of you-dont-need-to-know-my-life-cause-its-suckish person. Macamtu lah kot, haa. Yeah. So,  tempat ni utk aku luahkan perasaan sahaja, and imagine that no one ever notice the presence of me cause basically they just read this and leave the page, jaranglah org tinggalkan comment - tapi aku suka letak comment, hehe; And dont even care kalau rasa macam cakap sorang. 

  Okay, sebenarnya masa first time post entry dekat sini rasa macam td a, macam td buat Twitter tu. Tapi macam tebalkan muka masuk ke dunia siber ni. So, yeah sampai sekarang boleh survive dalam dunia blog ni. Tapi Twitter takde courage lagi, Facebook pun. Speaking about Facebook, due to my growing thingy, aku rasa macam social network ni macam pointless, buang masa. Seronok dia sekejap je, tu yang aku rasa. But then again, who cares what I feel ? Hahaha.

  So myb for now, I just stick to this thing, this blogging thingy. Myb Twitter tu, hm malam ni kot ? AHAHAHAHHAHAHA ! - Eh, bodoh lah kau ni Yana.

Byeee !

Eh, hai hai

  Aku rasa macam nak buat Twitter lah. - Nan, sila jangan gelak, hahahaha, okay aku yang gelak sendiri. So yeah, dah lama tak update blog - Hey, siapa peduli ? Okay end of this rubbish.

  Recently had met Dila and Fasya. Rindu sial dekat korang dua ni. Lagi lagi Fasya sebab last jumpa dia dkt sekolah time paper Chemistry tahun lepas. Tengok tengok dah kerja, dah pakai make up dah, hehe. - Sorry.

And my life had been superb for this whole January of 2012 :-

  Because I had the best time of my life up until today. - Ye Yana, asyik merayau je, tanam anggur kan sebab tu merayau. Pergi sini sana, pergi main selipar, pergi rumah Edy main kad & tengok movie, pergi sekolah, pergi rumah Shahirah, pergi secret recipe malam malam, pergi turun bangi malam malam, pergi tu pergi ni. Bestnya lahai.

  So as a conclusion, hoping that this year will be my year - Allah, let 2012 be nice comel comel dgn saya okay ? Okay. 

Have a nice day like mua, bye.

Raziq Rahman

    Ehem, dengar cerita ada orang tu botak. Uuuuuuuu. Okay, and aku dah dapat tangkap gambar dia ! Okay, not the exact person lah, tapi mcm sama dgn kau do weh, tak tipu. And I cant stop adoring it :3 - N'awwww, isnt it lovely ? I know you'll thanked me Raziq. Muka dia pun, gembira macam kau weh ! Heheheheh.

 *Jeng jeng jeng :

Omg Raziq, sama kaaan ? You guys are like twins ! :')

*Am supposed to be with Ila right now go to Putrajaya wand now I'm stuck writing this because my Dad won't let me go. And lg sembab hati ni, he actually was joking ! Sebenarnya dia bg tapi igt pukul 1pm ++ which sebenarnya Ila pergi sana pukul 11am or so ! Haih, nasib nasib.

Yours faithfully,

Me !

Hey, ada aku kesah ?

    OK. Today's already the fifth day of year 2012, and probably too late to wish a Happy New Year - mmg lambat nak mampus pun Yana .-. ; Hey, ada aku kesah kalau lambat ? No one's ever read this, well except Dila, hehehe I love you bebeh, xoxo sikit ! Kay sorry. 

     Last year probably was the year I love the most and wish it couldn't be ended, knp ? Banyak lah sbbnya, takkan aku nak list semuakan. Tkd masa aku - Hey, I'm a busy woman okay ? Not a woman actually but yeah wtv, babi a aku melalut ; Well basically because I've got so many new friends from Jalan 3 which I like them a lot because they are just different from the others, I mean different from my school. 

 Their friendship is what I adore the most.

    
     You see, nowdays not all teens have the spirit of loyalty towards their friends. The only kind of friend I use to see right now is the kind of friend using against friend just to get what they want such as popularity, bitching others, homeworks done, copying in exams, share their wealthiness bla bla all the useless one. But this kind of friends I known from Jalan 3 are just plain different. They always can count on their friend and do whatever it takes to protect their group which I adore it. Okay myb you would say my compliments are over the top but myb because I never expected that kind of friend still exist, if you know what I mean. But still, I miss my friends at JESS.  

F***, I miss them like hell.

      Enough babbling, Happy New Year - it is still a new year for me though, so shut up ; and hope that you will get what you wished. I just pray for your wished, so pray for me too ! Kalau tak, siap - okay sorry 'bout that.

Till we meet again, adios amigas.